Things couldn't be busier, more stressful and more exciting in the Davis household these days.
This past month has been a roller coaster of emotions for many reasons.
First: I took on another baby to watch in the middle of August, since I'll be loosing the little boy once he starts walking. So, in total I have been watching a 14 month old boy, a 15 month old girl and my almost 20 month old daughter. With these three babies I am unable to leave the house, even for walks. So I am now truly spending all of my time with humans under the age of 2. While I love these munchkins, I feel like a crazy person with no adult interaction. Especially since Scott is gone and nights are just Jordyn and I. I'm feeling more isolated and lonely than ever. It's been rough. It looks like I'll be back down to 1 baby in October and I am really looking forward to the mobility.
Second: Scott has been sent back to Ely, NV. He is living in a camper, in the middle of nowhere and working on average 13 hours a day with a 1 hour commute each way. Work has been so busy for him that we haven't been able to talk much during the day, and by the time he gets home we haven had much time to Skype. This has been really tough on him, i know he hates being away from his family and it breaks my heart to think of how he must be feeling. I dont know if i could do it. I am so grateful for my husband being able to make such great sacrifices for his family. Jordyn has been missing him quite a bit, sometimes she grabs my phone and asks for daddy. We always call him when she does this and she is excited when he can talk.
Third (and probably our biggest news): we found out that we're expecting again!!! While I couldn't be happier and more excited, I can't help but worry that I've bitten off more than I can chew. Scott and I have always wanted our kids close together, and we decided that we wouldn't let his work dictate our family spacing. I am so happy that our children will be just over 2 years apart as we're due in April. At the same time I don't know how I am going to be able to manage our toddler, nannying and this pregnancy all on my own. Yikes! Right now, I'm just about 9 weeks (very early) and feeling sick and exhausted all the time.
I never in my wildest dreams imagined that I would be spending my 4th year of marriage without Scott, that Jordyn would be spending her second year of life without being able to hug her Daddy everyday and that I would experience my second pregnancy without my husband right by my side. Even still, I am trying every day to focus on the positive and be thankful for all that I have. Not every day is easy, but there are moments in even the roughest days that remind me just how Blessed I am.